October 29, 2014

summer in autumn

No matter the season, some days resemble summer. Some days feel more like summer freedom, than summer itself. Days like these keep me going, brighten the darkest weeks, and just knowing they existed makes me hopeful that I'll encounter one of those days again.

I wasn't having awful weeks, not exactly, they were eye-opening, and summer in autumn always helps going through. 

October 23, 2014

a beautiful life

Singing and dancing to songs we discovered in elementary school, we knew the lyrics and all the dancing moves, it's the kind of information that just sticks. As we threw our hands in the air, she whispered "life is beautiful", it was one of those moments, where it seems everything in the world is right, the universe in perfect alignment, and there's no other place or company you'd rather have.

the motivational talk

She sat down beside me, cue the motivational talk, "you know you're a great woman, right?" I know I've said he's so great, but I know I'm kind of good too, I don't need this talk.
Looked at me with such pity, quarter of a century and alone, that's what I think she was grasping, not that it bothered me, it bothered others much more than me. 

October 21, 2014

the miles-space equation

Not a single word that day, history was made, not one that I'm proud of, but I gave it space, as if the thousands of miles between us weren't enough.

the faucet

I feel myself being emptied again,
someone opened the faucet,
the emotions spilling out,
laying on the floor,
soon to be evaporated,
and now inside just vacant space.

Empty but not free.

not an obligation

It comes down to this, you don't have to talk to me everyday, it shouldn't be an obligation, but I kind of hoped you'd want to, just to share how you've been, just to know a little about me.

October 14, 2014

couldn't do it

Couldn't do it,
couldn't ask for the answers I've been wanting,
the ones I've invented over and over in my mind,
maybe because I know ignorance can be bliss,
and I'm not ready to face the truth.

October 9, 2014

look up

It's comforting to know that despite our many differences, we get to look up and see the same moon shining in the middle of the night.

October 7, 2014

leave it to the stars

No need to be afraid of the end, if it's meant to be it will find its way eventually, that's what I tell myself now, it eases my mind. There's only so much under our control, so release it all and leave it to the stars.