May 31, 2011

Fact #9

Fact: Yes, I will miss you while I'm gone.

May 30, 2011

can't believe

"I never told you what I should've said... and now I miss everything about you, can't believe that I still want you."
                                                                                                             -Colbie Caillat

about love

There comes a point when you just love someone. Not because they’re good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn’t mean you’ll be together forever. It doesn’t mean you won’t hurt each other. It just mean you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it.”
                                                                                -Laurell K. Hamilton (Incubus Dreams)

that excuse

Because at some point I didn't really know if your excuse was legitimate or just a lie to put off our meeting, I never dared to ask because that's the kind of pain that would last.

May 29, 2011

you knew me

You never said goodbye even though you knew you were leaving, I guess you didn't think I could handle it. You knew me so well even till the end of our days.

May 27, 2011

you should know

I want you to know that I think I love you and it's merely a thought because in reality I'm not even sure what love is. I just know I want to know about you and your everyday life, I miss you when you're not around even for a little while, my face lights up whenever you call, you're so wrong but at the same time the best combination I've ever found, I honestly can't imagine my life without you. Anyway, I just thought you should know.

just an act

Who am I kidding? I'm not as strong as I pretend to be, it does break my heart everytime you talk about her, but it's too late to let you know my strenght was just an act, it's too late for you to know.

May 26, 2011

as for now

One day I might remember our conversations and be grateful it all happened the way it did, as for now please go f*ck yourself and leave me alone.

not in your city

"And it may look to you like I’m just walking through your city with my head held high. But in my head, I am not in your city."
-I Wrote This for You

word-less call

I felt my heart break a little. I knew I shouldn't have called, she was obviously there and he didn't have to say much.

May 24, 2011

Fact #8

Fact: I don't think I'll ever fully understand why we weren't meant to be.

the heart doctor

I can feel us dying, this feeling that we have is fading away. This condition has no cure, the heart doctor said at the very most we have one more month to go. I agree.

May 23, 2011

leave me a message

Leave me a message, let me know you're out there, give me a sign, just anything...
Make me feel alive once again.

our story

Our story was perfect and magical, the kind of story you dream of having with the love of your life so you can re-tell it every time you meet someone, as perfect as it was, it crashed. Now there's nothing more that bits and pieces of you and me scattered on my mind.

May 22, 2011

Fact #7

Fact: I love you more than I did when you were mine.

let's do it

I kept thinking that if we went into the next step, we'd ruin us, whatever it is we have. Fuck it, let's do it, let's ruin our friendship, it's not like we're getting much from it now.

the victim

It's alright, you found your new "victim", now you can go make her cry instead of me.

not good

I dreamt you died, it was the worst nightmare I've ever had. At your funeral I met your best friend and told her " I just don't know what to do of my life without him". I woke up realizing this is true, when you're not around even for a couple of hours I feel lost, this isn't good.

no one to blame

It's not your fault, I'm sure you didn't want to entice me with your looks, your smiles, your kisses, it just happened. There's no one to blame.

May 21, 2011

Fact #6

Fact: I dream about you much more than I let you know. I probably dream about you much more than I let myself know.

May 20, 2011

back to you

"Something always brings me back to you, it never takes too long."
                                                                              -Gravity by Sara Bareilles

the same

What I learned from this is that everybody moves on and I keep standing still, so still you'd think you're talking to me 3 years ago, same friends, same crush, same school, same all. Not saying I want a big change, but will something ever get old with me?

what's real?

I could've said yes, mainly because I really wanted to, but I didn't answer, real things scare me too much.

she loves you

She loves you with all her heart, she's always been around, despite of all the things you do behind her back. Take good care of her kiddo, girls like that are hard to find.

small world

The world is a small place. No borderlines, no governments, no nationalities can keep us apart.

May 18, 2011

fact #5

Fact: I pretend that my nicknames and statuses are just phrases and bits of songs totally unrelated but in reality they're all meant for you.

May 17, 2011

make it happen

Stop wishing and start making things happen. If you want change then change, if you want love then love, if you want me then tell me.

May 16, 2011

fact #4

Fact: Maybe it's already over, maybe it never even began but I can't keep you off my mind.

mind matters

Why do I keep making up these stories in my mind?
There's nothing going on, not now not ever.
So stop it.
Mind, seriously...stop it!

no luck

I tried setting fire to the rain and the outcome is still the same, no luck.
Just like you and I, no luck.

May 15, 2011

mind inhabitant

You, talking about her again. She never leaves your mind like you never leave mine. And I guess that's the way it goes, we both want impossibles and we both think there's no other choice.

you don't know me

And they said, he's not the sort of guy for you, we just imagined someone different for you based on who you are. And I just thought, you don't even know me.

Fact #3

Fact: When you call I let the phone ring for a little while, not because I'm busy (most of the time) but because I just like seeing your name on my phone screen.

the criticism

I learned that people will always find something to critize you for, they will always talk. If you dress a certain way, if you say certain words, if you act a certain way, can't make them all happy and that's alright. Learn to do things for you, not for the sake of someone else's conversation.

May 8, 2011

your kind

Tired of listening to you cheap lies, you think you're going to make me fall but I know better, I know your kind.

May 7, 2011

self control

No self control, you keep caving into your bad habits and you know it. You make me feel guilty but it's all you. Don't act as if you're mad cause you knew all along it was your fault.

May 2, 2011

the problem

I don't have a problem loving you, I have a problem with you not feeling it too.

May 1, 2011

different times

This time is different, this time it's not the same...I grew up, I learned,  I lived... now it's not the same. This time I won't belive empty words, this time you have to give a little more.