March 30, 2011

a year ago

It's been a year since I met you. Oh, time flies but feelings never die. You're still a part of my mind and even worse a part of my heart. How can it be, that two souls can't leave each other behind when the distance has teared them apart?

fact #1

Fact: Not once have I talked about you without shedding tears.

i'll take it

It was the truth, that's why it hurted. It was raw, apparently what I needed. It was bold and hurtful and still here I am writing to you, because after all, love is love and I'll take your words this time.

March 28, 2011

not my business

Sometimes I find myself thinking about you, more than I should. And I wonder where you are and how you're dealing with your life, not that it's any of my business anymore.

March 23, 2011

the pending messages

I don't understand what you want from me anymore, I don't think I ever did. These days you leave me messages saying I should get on more, and whenever we meet you say nothing at all.

March 22, 2011

the power of change

Because it comes from within, no outside inspiration will do, it's only about you. Took me a while to understand but change is in my hands. I decide where my mind goes, I decide how to deal. The power of change lives within me.

March 18, 2011

i want you

“I just want you…that’s it. All your flaws, mistakes, smiles, giggles, jokes, sarcasm. Everything. I just want you.”
                                                                                                                               -Sara Quin

March 17, 2011

the old habits

Sometimes I wish my heart knew better than going back to it's old habits of loving you, I never learn.

March 15, 2011

i choose

You don't get to choose for me. Yes, I care about what you think, but this is my life. I've worked hard for what I have, for what I've gotten, and I'm not going to limit myself for you. Not anymore.

March 14, 2011

missing places

So you miss that place you once belonged to, but that place isn't really the same anymore. Time passed and things changed, there's no way you are the same you used to be, there's no way that place is still the same. You end up homesick for a place that doesn't even exist anymore, homesick for a place in your imagination, what to do with that?

farewell conversation

You: You do realize that if you go, you'll be completely alone?
Me: Yes, I know. And I know I might get lonely sometimes, but hey, I get lonely when I'm around you too, so I think I can deal.


Suddenly life surprises you and you end up places you never thought you'd be emotionally or physically. The unimaginable becomes possible and world of opportunities opens up before your eyes. It is up to you to take the chance, so stop thinking about it and go for it.

March 11, 2011

about clean breaks

We're messy, we're bad and falling apart. Why don't I know how to step back? Clearly I know nothing about clean breaks, it is as if I liked pouring water in soil, making mud and diving in, head first. We're messy, we're bad and we don't seem to be saying goodbye anytime soon.

March 8, 2011

i'm giving in

I can't take it anymore, should I resist or give into it? Somebody help me stop. Never mind, I'm giving in, giving in into my old ways, my bad habits, especially you.

March 2, 2011

this time

And just this time, will you shut up and kiss me?

March 1, 2011

no longer afraid

I used to be so scared, so confused in this storm of life.
Nothing but lighting and rain,
so much rain.

Learned to swim to get by,
I was tired,
wanted a clear sky and a sun shining bright.

So I held His hand,
he grabbed me tight and said it would be alright.
The clouds left, a blue sky stayed.
Sunrays drank the water away.
I felt all right.

He said He’d never leave my side.
I’m no longer afraid.
He’s watching my back.